“Loneliness is the human condition. Cultivate it. The way it tunnels into you allows your soul room to grow. Never expect to outgrow loneliness. Never hope to find people who will understand you, someone to fill that space. An intelligent, sensitive person is the exception, the very great exception. If you expect to find people who will understand you, you will grow murderous with disappointment. The best you’ll ever do is to understand yourself, know what it is that you want, and not let the cattle stand in your way.”

Janet Fitch, White Oleander

I’ve been doing so well that a slight pang of loneliness tripped me up today. I was so dissapointed in myself for feeling something other than bliss. But it’s important to remember that beating yourself up can never help. That everything passes and that feeling something other than happiness is not a sign of weakness. Schopenhauer understood that contentment is not the human condition and that we should not believe man is “supposed to be happy”, we are not supposed to be anything but to be in the world we were thrown into. I am lucky that 99% of my days are absolutely joyous, this 1 day I will consider as a reminder of the crazy, random, variety of human existence.

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